She is the sweetest smiley girl and I just love her so.
Let’s start with the night before.
It was a Saturday and my husband and I had received gift cards to Texas Roadhouse. We decided to have a little date night since baby could “come any day now.” I remember ordering a medium well steak that night thinking, “hope baby doesn’t come tomorrow ‘cause I wouldn’t want this to be the meal I’d have right before I go into labor” — if you know, you know. Ah! It was a great night and I loved every bit of it. However, when we went home, I had to ask Jeff to massage me because I felt just extreme aches in my lower back and all around the sides of my belly. My initial thought was that my body was just prepping for labor … or so I thought.
…then comes morning.
8:45 AM | I woke up at 8:45am to get ready for church because 3rd trimester had my pregnant self moving incredibly slow - I needed a little more time to get ready. As soon as I got up, I felt an immediate gush of liquid and that only meant one thing. My water had broken. So my initial thought was to slowly get ready and pack my hospital bag because of course I hadn’t packed it yet. I was going to have Jeff and Noah just attend church while I got myself ready, but I called the hospital and they advised me to just head in to get checked. I knew that, but I knew it’d take some time, so I didn’t want to rush in to just sit around.
It feels like a million times that I've tried to start this post only to be called upon for the next feeding, or my mind was drawn elsewhere, or I just couldn't find the words. Honestly, I started this post back in January, so it feels like a long time that it's been sitting here … however Caleigh is finally asleep and I somehow found it in me to grab my laptop from the living room, so let's try it again and see how long I get 'til she wakes up again.
Rewind back to January when I first started this post …
I can't believe the holidays have come and gone. I know for some, it didn't quite feel like Christmas. That's the same for me, too, but I was reminded that Christmas isn't about feeling a certain way. It's a celebration of Emmanuel, God with us. Needless to say, that was comforting for me as I spent the holidays at home with baby as I'm fresh into this postpartum period. Lol. Anyway, here's some updates on what we've been up to these past couple of months.
And now back to the present.
ADJUSTMENT // no surprise there, still learning to adjust and convinced I will forever be learning how to do so. In some sense, it feels surreal that we've spent the last six months here. Time has been both slow and fast, moving so quickly, yet sometimes I feel like my life's been put on pause. In all honesty, there have been some hard moments and it could be due to a plethora of reasons, but in other ways, it's been a complete blessing in disguise and that's something to be thankful for.
WINTER // we had another snow storm last week and it made me way too sad. When I was young, a boy from youth asked me, "Why do we let the weather control the way feel?" Good question. I don't know why either, but it really does have some effect on the way we feel sometimes. Admittedly, the lingering snow has me feeling pretty blue these days. Except just this morning, I woke up at 6:30am to wake Jeffrey up for work only to find that the sun already made its way out! That was sadly exciting. Haha!
HEALTH & POSTPARTUM // I was cleared at my 6-week appointment! I started a new workout program that felt fitting for this season I'm in - postpartum, newborn life, one car, limited time = workouts at home. Haha. Honestly, I'm not far in, but one day at a time is what I'm telling myself.
CALEIGH JUNE // delivered at 37 weeks and we are so in love! Still surreal that we have a baby girl and are now a family of four! When we brought her home, I felt so busied with multiple little tasks that I didn't have time to process everything, but the moment I finally got to catch a breath, I cried. Lol. I think it was a mixture of good tears and sad ones, too… just grieving the idea of it no longer being just us and Noah. It's a feeling I can't quite put into words. We're 2 months in with Caleigh now and I can't imagine what life was even like without her. Birth story to come later!
OTHER RANDOM THINGS I'VE BEEN INTO //
+ SHOWS: Emily in Paris, Crash Landing on You, The Last of Us
+ BOOKS: It Ends With Us by Colleen Hoover and Daisy Jones & The Six by Taylor Jenkins Reid
+ DRINKS: Better Greens has been so good. I've been enjoying it so much.
+ OUR NIGHT ROUTINE: consists of nothing much, but I've been enjoying the winding down part of our day.
+ BIBLE: working through Romans and its gospel truths continue to encourage my soul
+ PLANNERS: still loving my planner line up + journals. It's been a surprising form of stress relief for me.
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