heaven & co

- I had a meeting with one of my professors today and I dreaded it, but wow, it was a very nice 10 minute meeting. I loved talking to him on a one to one basis and it felt nice to know that it's okay if to struggle in his class ... haha! Plus, he's real chill and so understanding, which I am so grateful for!

1. Wherever you are, be all there. -Jim Elliot

Have you ever had those times where you're physically in a certain place, but your mind is elsewhere? I spend some of my time with the kids at kidZone and as much as I love being in the midst of these children, I find that my mind is always consumed on other things at that moment. I think about all the homework I need to do and could be doing or the future dates in my planner or I'm consumed with worry and doubt ... and all of this brings me to my next point ...


2. Take it one day at a time.

The other day, all I did was breathe, and I told myself to take it one day at a time ... because although I could be trying my very best, I'm still human, and it's normal to not be okay ... so taking it one day at a time.

I didn't want to face certain things ... but I had to face them today. I hate being unaware so I had to. Quite frankly, I'm scared because I don't want to deal with what if's and maybe's .... you know?

The other day, my sister and I found an old cassette tape and listened to it. They brought her so many memories, but they brought me memories too. The songs on that tape fell during my "growing up" years. As I currently listen to Bebo Norman, I get so nostalgic because he played on the radio all the time when I was little. I used to wonder what it truly felt like to say, "Oh, I wish I was a kid again. I hate responsibilities.." and now I kind of have an idea. With that being said, I sometimes wish I was a kid again just so I wouldn't have to face these kinds of things. But if I remember anything as a child, it was that I wanted to grow up. It's so silly how humans are sometimes.

Last week, I told myself that I would go to my hall's prayer meeting this week. Maiya and I haven't gone to one yet ... which is so sad, I know ... but we did today and wow, it was perfect. One of my SLC's went onto the topic of "why we're here." It was real nice to know that all of us girls are ... pretty much on the same page. We're human, so when it comes to future plans, we worry, fear, and even doubt about it ... "You can make many plans, but the Lord's plans will prevail!" (Proverbs 19:21) So very perfect.

And what's even more perfect is knowing that my mom is still praying for me each night. She often wonders about what I eat and if I've eaten and then we get onto the topic of homework and how I always always have homework. She always writes this long paragraph about how I should hurry up and get my homework done, but one thing that she never fails to say is ...  "God is with you."

Fall break has come to an end, but that's okay. I think I've had my share of legit bumming around. Seriously, I only left the house twice. It was so nice though. And now, as I prepare to head back to school, I want to get in the mode of "hardcore studying and doing so incredibly well on tests." It's not worth it to just supply minimal effort in doing what I must do. As I spent my time here, I realized how hard my parents were working and the fact that they're continually supporting me through this college thing is so motivating.

.. and of course, like all things, we only want to highlight the best parts ---- but for me, that was all of it!

Can I tell you how much I love being celebrated? I love it ... not because I just want to be the center of attention or whatever, but because I feel cared about and loved more than any other day. :)




















Over fall break ...
- Family decided to celebrate all of October birthdays. So much fun.
- Mom made pho because she knew that I've been wanting some.
- Yeng had mentioned to me that my cooking got better! Such a plus!
- The guys rented movies and we just watched movies for one night. Rise of the Guardians is a very cute and inspirational movie.
- I was easily drawn into pinterest and then was inspired to begin knitting again. I finally finished my own scarf after two days. Worth it? I think so! Funny conversation with Pang went like this ....

     "Why do you look like a grandma?" 
     "I'm preparing for the Winter!" 

- Speaking of Pinterest, I'm getting so excited for all of the holiday pins coming in. :)
- Mom applauded me when she found me in the kitchen cooking before she got home from work. I think she misses me a whole lot. ;)
- I'm happy to say that I, at least, attempted to do my homework. I imagined myself working and reading my butt off, but who are we kidding.
- Reason woke me up to tell me that he was leaving for school. He's so funny when he carries his violin with him to school, but hey, he's gonna be a pro soon enough.
- I got to sleep in. It. was. amazing.

That's it!

I can't believe it's fall break. The window is open and I'm currently listening to my James Morrison radio on Pandora. The weather today is perfect - maybe a little chilly, but it's a good thing. As I spend my afternoon packing to go home for the weekend, I'm a little sad ... because everyone's leaving. I can't even begin to imagine how the end of the school year will be like. 

It's one of those mornings where I'm just so scared of what's to come, scared of the maybe somewhat bad decisions that I may make, scared of the "not enough effort" attitude...

Oh my goodness.

Today is my brother's birthday. 

A little devotion, card making, and soccer playing.

Life lately ...