Overwhelming and Productive all at the same time.

I didn't want to face certain things ... but I had to face them today. I hate being unaware so I had to. Quite frankly, I'm scared because I don't want to deal with what if's and maybe's .... you know?

The other day, my sister and I found an old cassette tape and listened to it. They brought her so many memories, but they brought me memories too. The songs on that tape fell during my "growing up" years. As I currently listen to Bebo Norman, I get so nostalgic because he played on the radio all the time when I was little. I used to wonder what it truly felt like to say, "Oh, I wish I was a kid again. I hate responsibilities.." and now I kind of have an idea. With that being said, I sometimes wish I was a kid again just so I wouldn't have to face these kinds of things. But if I remember anything as a child, it was that I wanted to grow up. It's so silly how humans are sometimes.

Last week, I told myself that I would go to my hall's prayer meeting this week. Maiya and I haven't gone to one yet ... which is so sad, I know ... but we did today and wow, it was perfect. One of my SLC's went onto the topic of "why we're here." It was real nice to know that all of us girls are ... pretty much on the same page. We're human, so when it comes to future plans, we worry, fear, and even doubt about it ... "You can make many plans, but the Lord's plans will prevail!" (Proverbs 19:21) So very perfect.

And what's even more perfect is knowing that my mom is still praying for me each night. She often wonders about what I eat and if I've eaten and then we get onto the topic of homework and how I always always have homework. She always writes this long paragraph about how I should hurry up and get my homework done, but one thing that she never fails to say is ...  "God is with you."

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On a different note .... 

- My kidZone kids are opening up little by little. They're kinda funny.

- I managed to get some studying done today. 

- It's already going to be Wednesday?!

- I had an amazing birthday!

- My room needs major cleaning ... but I'll save that for Thursday. 

- I realized that I make lists because I'm overwhelmed. 

And so ... that's it.