"If you are doing what you are supposed to be doing, if you are doing the right thing, give 100% in the things you are doing now. Consider it as your calling; treat it as your dream. If your heart is 25% in the past remorse and only 75% in the present endeavor or 25% in the future envy and only 75% in the present calling, you are learning to be divided and you are training yourself to be unfaithful. Biblically learn from the past and prayerfully plan the future, but wholeheartedly be faithful in the present. If not, when you get old, regrets rather than fulfillment, will take place of your dream." - Unknown
Here comes the "end of the year" post.
2013 was a crazy year - as most are.
Crazy good, though.
Starting the year off, I had the wonderful opportunity to attend Passion 2013 where I met a really awesome group of Seniors going through all sorts of the same difficulties that I was having to deal with as well. I had no idea who they were, but they definitely left a mark in my life and I still think of them today. Sometimes I think I'll run into them in public and see them as a familiar face one of these days, but not know who they are. I loved all of Passion. Jesus' presence, Jesus' glory and power that moved the dome. Jesus. It really was a great start to the year.
Finally, I made it as a Senior! High school was awful. Just sayin'. I tell myself this all the time and my brothers tell me this all the time, but I should have graduated a long time ago .... 'cause I'm such a baby, not because I failed or anything. It feels like such a long time since I've left high school, but I did it! I remember the really long winters that were so hard to get through, but it is done.
And at last, college. The college process was crazy. I didn't realize there were so many papers to fill out before I could actually "get in." I don't usually admit that things are stressful, but this was indeed, stressful. College has been so fun, though. The papers weren't fun. Walking around campus in the rain wasn't fun. Waking up early wasn't fun ... but all of that made it fun! haha! Just kidding. In all seriousness, college has been such a blessing in my life and I feel so privileged! It has really allowed me to see life in a different light. Just the other day, I realized that I'm literally on my own when I'm away from home. Not that I'm really independent, but then again ... I am. ha ha. Anyway, I love the friends that I'm making and the people that I've come across thus far. I've traveled with groups that I never thought I'd ever travel with and hung out with people that I never thought I'd even meet. God is at work in such a campus and even though days there can be so redundant, God is moving. I fail to realize that sometimes.
Also ... 1) I finally got my permit. Yes, my permit. 2) I got a new job in retail. Definitely quite the experience... 3) I was able to work with kids again this year! It's so different each time, but it's such a learning experience.
Jesus, once again, I thank You that You've never left me throughout the madness and chaos of the year; throughout the good times and especially through the hard times. Thank You for specifically choosing me as Your daughter and calling me to a purpose higher than I know. You have fearfully and wonderfully created me and for that, I am thankful. Amen.
P.S. Both my sister and I agree that 2013 was definitely my year ... but I feel like 2014 will be my year, too. haha. ;)
Here comes the "end of the year" post.
2013 was a crazy year - as most are.
Crazy good, though.
Starting the year off, I had the wonderful opportunity to attend Passion 2013 where I met a really awesome group of Seniors going through all sorts of the same difficulties that I was having to deal with as well. I had no idea who they were, but they definitely left a mark in my life and I still think of them today. Sometimes I think I'll run into them in public and see them as a familiar face one of these days, but not know who they are. I loved all of Passion. Jesus' presence, Jesus' glory and power that moved the dome. Jesus. It really was a great start to the year.
Finally, I made it as a Senior! High school was awful. Just sayin'. I tell myself this all the time and my brothers tell me this all the time, but I should have graduated a long time ago .... 'cause I'm such a baby, not because I failed or anything. It feels like such a long time since I've left high school, but I did it! I remember the really long winters that were so hard to get through, but it is done.
And at last, college. The college process was crazy. I didn't realize there were so many papers to fill out before I could actually "get in." I don't usually admit that things are stressful, but this was indeed, stressful. College has been so fun, though. The papers weren't fun. Walking around campus in the rain wasn't fun. Waking up early wasn't fun ... but all of that made it fun! haha! Just kidding. In all seriousness, college has been such a blessing in my life and I feel so privileged! It has really allowed me to see life in a different light. Just the other day, I realized that I'm literally on my own when I'm away from home. Not that I'm really independent, but then again ... I am. ha ha. Anyway, I love the friends that I'm making and the people that I've come across thus far. I've traveled with groups that I never thought I'd ever travel with and hung out with people that I never thought I'd even meet. God is at work in such a campus and even though days there can be so redundant, God is moving. I fail to realize that sometimes.
Also ... 1) I finally got my permit. Yes, my permit. 2) I got a new job in retail. Definitely quite the experience... 3) I was able to work with kids again this year! It's so different each time, but it's such a learning experience.
Jesus, once again, I thank You that You've never left me throughout the madness and chaos of the year; throughout the good times and especially through the hard times. Thank You for specifically choosing me as Your daughter and calling me to a purpose higher than I know. You have fearfully and wonderfully created me and for that, I am thankful. Amen.
P.S. Both my sister and I agree that 2013 was definitely my year ... but I feel like 2014 will be my year, too. haha. ;)
Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow Me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for My sake, you will save it. " - Matthew 16: 24-25 NLT
Planned blessings. Do you ever plan to be a blessing? I do .... or at least I try to. Earlier this week, my sister and I drove past a random guy standing in the middle of the road with a sign that read something along the lines of, "Selling cotton candy to pay for rent and to provide presents for a wife and three kids." I saw his face as he looked down. Maybe it was disappointment? It was especially cold that day. If this man stood out there in that kind of cold, clearly, he was in need.
We kept driving ... right past him. The next couple minutes in the car were silent because I was thinking of ways I could have helped him ... in any way. A couple minutes later, I asked, "What do we do? Why do we just keep driving?" And then come the excuses. So why do we keep driving? Why do we keep moving on with our own lives? Why do we go on as if other people aren't just as important as we make ourselves to be? When people go through hard times and we see it, too - how can we go on? When people have nothing to eat, how do we have the littlest ounce of courage to eat something ourselves?
See, as followers of Jesus, these are the kinds of situations we should act in. No, I don't mean that we should find every person on the street and give them money, but with the needy, supply; and with the helpless, help! We like to feel safe so we create this bubble and in that bubble, the only person in there is you, me, one, just one person. We like to be safe. We like to be secure. We don't ever want any thing less than comfortable. You know? Sometimes it's just hard, but I think we just make it harder. Granted, we're human ... but we like to make things complicated when the resolution is quite simple. You just be obedient to what Christ has commanded and have faith in His promises.
"God's not into appearances, He's into the heart. As long as the heart is pure and the heart is simply to glorify God and to sacrifice by giving our best to Him. And I pray that will be the revelation. And that giving our best to Him is not just after the confession of our lips but it's after our action.
...when it comes to reaching others, being prepared to be inconvenienced enough to kind of lay down our agendas and take up God's agenda." - Joel Houston
Planned blessings. Do you ever plan to be a blessing? I do .... or at least I try to. Earlier this week, my sister and I drove past a random guy standing in the middle of the road with a sign that read something along the lines of, "Selling cotton candy to pay for rent and to provide presents for a wife and three kids." I saw his face as he looked down. Maybe it was disappointment? It was especially cold that day. If this man stood out there in that kind of cold, clearly, he was in need.
We kept driving ... right past him. The next couple minutes in the car were silent because I was thinking of ways I could have helped him ... in any way. A couple minutes later, I asked, "What do we do? Why do we just keep driving?" And then come the excuses. So why do we keep driving? Why do we keep moving on with our own lives? Why do we go on as if other people aren't just as important as we make ourselves to be? When people go through hard times and we see it, too - how can we go on? When people have nothing to eat, how do we have the littlest ounce of courage to eat something ourselves?
See, as followers of Jesus, these are the kinds of situations we should act in. No, I don't mean that we should find every person on the street and give them money, but with the needy, supply; and with the helpless, help! We like to feel safe so we create this bubble and in that bubble, the only person in there is you, me, one, just one person. We like to be safe. We like to be secure. We don't ever want any thing less than comfortable. You know? Sometimes it's just hard, but I think we just make it harder. Granted, we're human ... but we like to make things complicated when the resolution is quite simple. You just be obedient to what Christ has commanded and have faith in His promises.
"God's not into appearances, He's into the heart. As long as the heart is pure and the heart is simply to glorify God and to sacrifice by giving our best to Him. And I pray that will be the revelation. And that giving our best to Him is not just after the confession of our lips but it's after our action.
...when it comes to reaching others, being prepared to be inconvenienced enough to kind of lay down our agendas and take up God's agenda." - Joel Houston
This world is full of brokenness; broken people; broken lives .... all God desires of us is to love these people; it's hard, but simple.
One king held the frankincense; one king held the myrrh; one king held the purest gold; one King held the hope of the world.
God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay. Remember Christ our Savior was born on Christmas day to save us all from Satan's power when we were gone astray...
The Good News of Jesus Christ is so refreshing. How blessed we are to be loved by such a Savior.
God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay. Remember Christ our Savior was born on Christmas day to save us all from Satan's power when we were gone astray...
The Good News of Jesus Christ is so refreshing. How blessed we are to be loved by such a Savior.
On the freshmen bucket list: Go to Mt. Currahee
... and now I can check that off.
Mt. Currahee was such a good idea. I know why I like the mornings - even though I'm not a morning person - it's 'cause the mornings are peaceful and fresh and renewing. As I looked down at the land and the houses that were filled with families, I couldn't help but thank God; thank Him for choosing to allow us to have another morning and for the breath that we were able to breathe. It was a great way to start the morning of my last day of finals.
And on that last day of finals, I had a really good conversation with a friend and on the topic of marriage, he told me, "Don't ever settle for less .... 'cause you're worth more than that." It's always the short conversations that have the best quality - not that long conversations don't have that. I'm thankful for little times like those that remind me who I am and whose I am ... remembering my worth in Jesus Christ.
And now that school is officially over for the Winter, I'm finally back at home and glad that I don't have to think about waking up for classes or struggling to finish a paper the day before it's due. Every time I come back home, I'm humbled because I see the way that my family lives and I see their hard work and it just humbles me. I'm excited for these next couple of weeks that I'll have at home!
.... and at the end of all this goodness, we can say that all of it comes from God alone.
I can't believe I'm here at the end of my first semester of college. I think that this semester has been one heck of a semester and one that has really challenged me both academically and socially. After a semester of trying to see what works and what doesn't, here's the ultimate truth that I came to realize: I over-complicate everything. I've learned a lot about myself this semester and about others too. There are things that I want to keep doing and things that I will definitely try to change.
I remember laying in bed one night just trying to figure out why I'm having such a difficult time trying to accept certain things and certain people that have been placed in my life ... and then it just made sense. I'm caring too about them - but caring in a way that's not loving, and caring in a way that made me feel like I was anything but loving. My prayer and goal for next semester is that when others look at me, they'll see Jesus in the center of who I am, what I do, the way I speak and all glory will be to Christ alone.
I remember laying in bed one night just trying to figure out why I'm having such a difficult time trying to accept certain things and certain people that have been placed in my life ... and then it just made sense. I'm caring too about them - but caring in a way that's not loving, and caring in a way that made me feel like I was anything but loving. My prayer and goal for next semester is that when others look at me, they'll see Jesus in the center of who I am, what I do, the way I speak and all glory will be to Christ alone.
A long time ago, someone had asked me, "Is too much of a good thing good?" and being the dumb girl I was, I answered, "Yes .... too much of a good thing is even greater!"
But as I was walking out of the last class that I would ever have with this specific professor, I realized that too much of a good thing is not good. Too much of a good thing is taken for granted and is not appreciated as all things should be.
Take pleasure in the short amount of time you do have because it's going to be good.
But as I was walking out of the last class that I would ever have with this specific professor, I realized that too much of a good thing is not good. Too much of a good thing is taken for granted and is not appreciated as all things should be.
Take pleasure in the short amount of time you do have because it's going to be good.
Good advice from my friend:
Don't live by the list you make for your potential husband, although the list is definitely good to have. Don't limit who God puts in your life strictly by the list.
What a wise guy.
Don't live by the list you make for your potential husband, although the list is definitely good to have. Don't limit who God puts in your life strictly by the list.
What a wise guy.
My mom walked into my room and handed me this photo. I was confused .... 'cause it wasn't even me, but she was confident that is was me - my dad just put the wrong name ... that's all. She started telling me about how "I was such a sick baby ..... but look at me now." Yes, we really had that kind of conversation.
Even though it's already December, I don't think it's ever too late to be thankful .... I'm thankful for my mom and her unending love that exemplifies Christ in so many ways, my dad and his caring heart, family ... for sure, my brothers that have become so "brotherly" ever since I've been away for college, my sister who is so supportive in me being here, actually being able to come to college and experience, meeting friends that will be a part of the rest of my life, funny conversations, rest in the midst of busyness, having a job to go back to, childhood friends, the same sun that rises every morning, I'm thankful for pretty colors and cute pictures, for the kids in my life that have shared so much of their time with me, for growth and maturity, thankful for a heart with emotions, thankful for community, for relationships, for laughter, for awkward moments, for change ...
... most of all, I am thankful for this life that I have, this breath that I'm breathing every minute of every day, and the God I serve in which all of this comes from.
{1 Thessalonians 5:18}
As I lay here and begin to collect my thoughts, I'm amazed by this week. A lot has happened and I still have plenty more to do. I'm sad to say that I can't just relax this weekend, but I'm very glad to say that for the first time, I have no plans, other than a movie, but that's not 'til night time. So my plan is to just stay in and do some homework that has been put off for far too long.
Certain situations and talks with my roommate have made me evaluate and re-evaluate myself - I'm super thankful for talks like these though. Who am I and what kind of person do I want to become within these next four years? No, no. I'm not having an identity crisis. It's just that the first semester is nearly over and I can't even begin to comprehend it. I don't really want to allow time to slip out of my hands although I can't exactly hold time either. So it's kind of like ... whatever? haha. I've just been thinking a lot about how God will be molding me and pruning me through my time here.
Onto new and not so important things in my life...
-- I tried this candy cane cocoa hot chocolate powder thing for the first time yesterday because Esther said it was, and I quote, "like Christmas in a cup." It was nice, but it didn't taste like Christmas. I do enjoy the thought of it, though. haha!
-- I'm going to watch Catching Fire! I can't really say that I'm super excited about it, but I am excited about going with everyone. The best part? The ticket was only 3 bucks! #lovecollege
-- Remember how I said I wanted a cozier room and so I wanted to make pillows? How silly. I finally made one though. It took me forever. I think I watched two movies while trying to make it.
-- I finally painted my nails again. I remember going through a phase where I painted my nails so much that I grew tired of it. I think I'm back in the phase of actually enjoying the nail painting.
-- I finally got the chance to go "thrifting" in college.
"....... livin' the life."
- Even though I woke up dreading the rain, I'm very much thankful for it.
- Thankful for such a thing as ... Christmas music.
- ... for super late night talks about nothing with my roomie.
- Although I have so much work to do, I'm thankful for an "underwhelmed" heart. :)
- Thankful that God provides just enough.
- As a broke college girl, I'm thankful for cheap finds today!
- Thankful that I have a job to go back to when I go home.
- When I look back into the past, I realize that God was working in it to bring what I now have in the present and for that, I am thankful.
As you well know, my brother has been going through some difficulties in his life. This past weekend, I was so encouraged by his group of friends. It was about 1am and his friends had circled around him outside in the cold to talk to him and to let him know that they're there when he needs them. It was so refreshing to see these guys do this kind of act. It's because they're his friends and that's what friends do. They don't do it everyday, but they've proven that when/if you're facing difficulties, they're the kind of friends that would be there. That's it! It was their presence, their care, their love that was in the air, but no one actually said, "I love you." but that was okay! I think we can all learn from this ... including myself. Sometimes, I wish I had friends like that but the question is ... am I being that kind of friend?
Definitely a good wake up call for me as all I saw in this world was me and Jesus. I forget that people exist and people have feelings and people need other people ... people like friends. :)
I've come to a point in my life where I have become so unmotivated in every single way. Like .... in every way possible. I hate being here, I really do. "Here" as in at this unmotivated point in my life. I've become unmotivated to "do" school, work, or exercise. It's not that I'm quitting or whatever, it's just that it's close to the end of the year and I'm gaining to mindset of wanting to stop and just really wanting the holidays.
Um, but the good news is that I'm very easily motivated and inspired, so I think I should be okay. ;)
... on a different note, I love hearing that my brother is learning a lot at this time in his life. For so long, I've prayed for God to work in his heart and all along, that's exactly what He's been doing. I was almost going to say, "He's finally doing it.. God's finally heard my prayers and is moving now" but the reality of the truth is that He's been doing it all this time ... working in my brother's heart and even leading him to pray the prayer, "Work in me, let me be used for Your glory.." So much to the point where He's had to give and take away from my brother's life. I bet my brother feels so much pain, but all I see is beauty in this. It's going to be awesome when he takes a look back at this time, I'm sure he'll say the same. Today he posted a clip of the song he was singing .... "I'll turn my vices into victory. The power of Christ has set me free. You've broken my chains ... in You, I'm saved.." Excited for what He'll reveal to him.
Now .... I really have to get to work and conquer this paper that I have to start and finish tonight.
Um, but the good news is that I'm very easily motivated and inspired, so I think I should be okay. ;)
... on a different note, I love hearing that my brother is learning a lot at this time in his life. For so long, I've prayed for God to work in his heart and all along, that's exactly what He's been doing. I was almost going to say, "He's finally doing it.. God's finally heard my prayers and is moving now" but the reality of the truth is that He's been doing it all this time ... working in my brother's heart and even leading him to pray the prayer, "Work in me, let me be used for Your glory.." So much to the point where He's had to give and take away from my brother's life. I bet my brother feels so much pain, but all I see is beauty in this. It's going to be awesome when he takes a look back at this time, I'm sure he'll say the same. Today he posted a clip of the song he was singing .... "I'll turn my vices into victory. The power of Christ has set me free. You've broken my chains ... in You, I'm saved.." Excited for what He'll reveal to him.
Now .... I really have to get to work and conquer this paper that I have to start and finish tonight.
I love that today is Friday. I love that even though I've had so many different moods today, God is still the same, unlike my forever changing self. I love that I didn't fall asleep in bio today. I love that time went by so fast in that class. You know how people are always like, "...then I looked at the clock and it was time to go.." yeah, that was me. I love that even though it's raining and all gloomy outside, I can come back inside and relax in the comfort of my own room where the heat has been filling since morning. I love that even though I'm on the verge of getting a cold, I'm not deathly ill, and on the plus side, I'm gaining that voice that I've always wanted. I love that I don't feel overwhelmed right now. I love that I'm getting into books. I'm currently reading Kisses from Katie and it's been beautiful.
I don't like knowing that my brother is hurting and I can't do anything to ease the pain he must be feeling. I hate that out of the simplest things, people turn it around and make it complicated. I hate that all of my Saturdays have been so busy. I hate that I can't even get my schedule done for classes next semester. :(
Time to sleep now.
I don't like knowing that my brother is hurting and I can't do anything to ease the pain he must be feeling. I hate that out of the simplest things, people turn it around and make it complicated. I hate that all of my Saturdays have been so busy. I hate that I can't even get my schedule done for classes next semester. :(
Time to sleep now.
"Standing on this mountain top, looking just how far we've come, knowing that for every step, You were with us. Kneeling on this battle ground, seeing just how much You've done, knowing every victory was Your power in us. Scars and struggles on the way, but with joy, our hearts can say .... never once did we ever walk alone."
... I am finding so much truth in those lyrics today and it makes me want to shout and sing praises. God is so good and even if/when I find myself in situations where I feel like I can trust no more, God is pulling at my heart through it all and reminding me that He is still God ... no matter what. So if you're facing uncertainty today, know that God is still God no matter what.
Dr. Jeff Adams came to speak this week for chapel on the topic of "missions" and he was amazing. The more I reflected on the things he said, the more I saw Christ in him and Christ at his center. It was such a good refresher to see a man of God speaking ever so boldly about his love and passion in reaching out to those in need of the Good News and for those that have yet to even hear it. There was a line he had said that I held onto ... maybe because I needed to hear it.
The more I spend my time here, the more I realize how unfocused I've been. It's ironic because although we're not called to perfection, this is a place where we're given opportunities to get focused and here I am on a totally different page. It just shows where my heart truly is .... and clearly, it's not in the right place. I often see myself struggling and refuse to admit it, but what if I just allowed myself to be challenged? What if I took it in as a really good thing?
On a totally different note, worship leaders are so cute. That came to my attention when I was kinda staring at one of the worship leaders in chapel the other day ... I have no shame.
There are so many things to praise God for today. The weather is beautiful, classes are over, and it's Friday. I'm trying to learn to not base the goodness of God solely on the goodness that I get out of a day. I seem to have the mindset that if I have good circumstances, then "God is with me today," when He is always with us, especially through the unwanted circumstances. I just wanted to share a little bit from my Jesus Calling devotionals because they've been hitting the spot each time and I believe they can do the same for you wherever you are in life right now ....
... I am finding so much truth in those lyrics today and it makes me want to shout and sing praises. God is so good and even if/when I find myself in situations where I feel like I can trust no more, God is pulling at my heart through it all and reminding me that He is still God ... no matter what. So if you're facing uncertainty today, know that God is still God no matter what.
Dr. Jeff Adams came to speak this week for chapel on the topic of "missions" and he was amazing. The more I reflected on the things he said, the more I saw Christ in him and Christ at his center. It was such a good refresher to see a man of God speaking ever so boldly about his love and passion in reaching out to those in need of the Good News and for those that have yet to even hear it. There was a line he had said that I held onto ... maybe because I needed to hear it.
What do you do when you don't know what to do?
Do what you know to do now and stop worrying about what you don't know. When you are walking in the spirit of God, there are no wrong turns.
And that's it. Worry is such a common topic for humans because that's just how we were made. We're prone to worry and fear and as much as I talk about not wanting to feel such a way, it's just a feeling and all I have to do is choose whether I want to keep feeling like it or not. And that's it.
The more I spend my time here, the more I realize how unfocused I've been. It's ironic because although we're not called to perfection, this is a place where we're given opportunities to get focused and here I am on a totally different page. It just shows where my heart truly is .... and clearly, it's not in the right place. I often see myself struggling and refuse to admit it, but what if I just allowed myself to be challenged? What if I took it in as a really good thing?
On a totally different note, worship leaders are so cute. That came to my attention when I was kinda staring at one of the worship leaders in chapel the other day ... I have no shame.
There are so many things to praise God for today. The weather is beautiful, classes are over, and it's Friday. I'm trying to learn to not base the goodness of God solely on the goodness that I get out of a day. I seem to have the mindset that if I have good circumstances, then "God is with me today," when He is always with us, especially through the unwanted circumstances. I just wanted to share a little bit from my Jesus Calling devotionals because they've been hitting the spot each time and I believe they can do the same for you wherever you are in life right now ....
You can live as close to me as you choose. I set up no barriers between us; neither do I tear down barriers that you erect. People tend to think their circumstances determine the quality of their lives. So they pour their energy into trying to control those situations. They feel happy when things are going well, and sad or frustrated when things don't turn out as they'd hoped. They rarely question this correlation between their circumstances and feelings. Yet it is possible to be content in any and every situation. Put more energy into trusting Me and enjoying My Presence. Don't let your well-being depend on your circumstances. Instead, connect your joy to My precious promises: I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go. I will meet all your needs according to My glorious riches. Nothing in all creation will be able to separate you from My Love. - Jesus Calling
- I had a meeting with one of my professors today and I dreaded it, but wow, it was a very nice 10 minute meeting. I loved talking to him on a one to one basis and it felt nice to know that it's okay if to struggle in his class ... haha! Plus, he's real chill and so understanding, which I am so grateful for!
- Got to play volleyball today even though I'm horrible at it.
- I had no classes today ...
- ... which meant that I got to sleep in 'til 10!
- Ladybugs are no longer making their rounds around the room... I don't really like ladybugs.
- A friend wanted to proofread my paper (so thankful for friends that want to do that for me...haha) and so I spent the majority of my day correcting it and trying to make it sound amazing. Trying to sound amazing is hard.
- It's my mom's birthday today! I called her earlier and asked her how old she was 'cause I really didn't know. We had quite the conversation... "How old are you?!" "I thought 50? but no, 49..." haha.
- Also, it's Halloween .... I don't really care about it, but I sure did enjoy the candy.
- I woke up this morning telling myself that people need to know the kind of love like Jesus's. It was a great day.
- I was reminded today that even though we are undeserving, God sent His Son in our place. So in regards to situations in my life, even if people don't deserve certain things, we give it anyway because God did the same for us. Uh, hope that made some kind of sense. Made sense to me!
...anyway, I am in need of a shower and then I should get onto more homework. Guess what? Tomorrow's Friday, so I'll finally be able to breathe for a little bit! Praise the Lord!
1. Wherever you are, be all there. -Jim Elliot
Have you ever had those times where you're physically in a certain place, but your mind is elsewhere? I spend some of my time with the kids at kidZone and as much as I love being in the midst of these children, I find that my mind is always consumed on other things at that moment. I think about all the homework I need to do and could be doing or the future dates in my planner or I'm consumed with worry and doubt ... and all of this brings me to my next point ...
2. Take it one day at a time.
The other day, all I did was breathe, and I told myself to take it one day at a time ... because although I could be trying my very best, I'm still human, and it's normal to not be okay ... so taking it one day at a time.
I didn't want to face certain things ... but I had to face them today. I hate being unaware so I had to. Quite frankly, I'm scared because I don't want to deal with what if's and maybe's .... you know?
The other day, my sister and I found an old cassette tape and listened to it. They brought her so many memories, but they brought me memories too. The songs on that tape fell during my "growing up" years. As I currently listen to Bebo Norman, I get so nostalgic because he played on the radio all the time when I was little. I used to wonder what it truly felt like to say, "Oh, I wish I was a kid again. I hate responsibilities.." and now I kind of have an idea. With that being said, I sometimes wish I was a kid again just so I wouldn't have to face these kinds of things. But if I remember anything as a child, it was that I wanted to grow up. It's so silly how humans are sometimes.
Last week, I told myself that I would go to my hall's prayer meeting this week. Maiya and I haven't gone to one yet ... which is so sad, I know ... but we did today and wow, it was perfect. One of my SLC's went onto the topic of "why we're here." It was real nice to know that all of us girls are ... pretty much on the same page. We're human, so when it comes to future plans, we worry, fear, and even doubt about it ... "You can make many plans, but the Lord's plans will prevail!" (Proverbs 19:21) So very perfect.
And what's even more perfect is knowing that my mom is still praying for me each night. She often wonders about what I eat and if I've eaten and then we get onto the topic of homework and how I always always have homework. She always writes this long paragraph about how I should hurry up and get my homework done, but one thing that she never fails to say is ... "God is with you."
The other day, my sister and I found an old cassette tape and listened to it. They brought her so many memories, but they brought me memories too. The songs on that tape fell during my "growing up" years. As I currently listen to Bebo Norman, I get so nostalgic because he played on the radio all the time when I was little. I used to wonder what it truly felt like to say, "Oh, I wish I was a kid again. I hate responsibilities.." and now I kind of have an idea. With that being said, I sometimes wish I was a kid again just so I wouldn't have to face these kinds of things. But if I remember anything as a child, it was that I wanted to grow up. It's so silly how humans are sometimes.
Last week, I told myself that I would go to my hall's prayer meeting this week. Maiya and I haven't gone to one yet ... which is so sad, I know ... but we did today and wow, it was perfect. One of my SLC's went onto the topic of "why we're here." It was real nice to know that all of us girls are ... pretty much on the same page. We're human, so when it comes to future plans, we worry, fear, and even doubt about it ... "You can make many plans, but the Lord's plans will prevail!" (Proverbs 19:21) So very perfect.
And what's even more perfect is knowing that my mom is still praying for me each night. She often wonders about what I eat and if I've eaten and then we get onto the topic of homework and how I always always have homework. She always writes this long paragraph about how I should hurry up and get my homework done, but one thing that she never fails to say is ... "God is with you."
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On a different note ....
- My kidZone kids are opening up little by little. They're kinda funny.
- I managed to get some studying done today.
- It's already going to be Wednesday?!
- I had an amazing birthday!
- My room needs major cleaning ... but I'll save that for Thursday.
- I realized that I make lists because I'm overwhelmed.
And so ... that's it.
Fall break has come to an end, but that's okay. I think I've had my share of legit bumming around. Seriously, I only left the house twice. It was so nice though. And now, as I prepare to head back to school, I want to get in the mode of "hardcore studying and doing so incredibly well on tests." It's not worth it to just supply minimal effort in doing what I must do. As I spent my time here, I realized how hard my parents were working and the fact that they're continually supporting me through this college thing is so motivating.
.. and of course, like all things, we only want to highlight the best parts ---- but for me, that was all of it!
Can I tell you how much I love being celebrated? I love it ... not because I just want to be the center of attention or whatever, but because I feel cared about and loved more than any other day. :)
Over fall break ...
- Family decided to celebrate all of October birthdays. So much fun.
- Mom made pho because she knew that I've been wanting some.
- Yeng had mentioned to me that my cooking got better! Such a plus!
- The guys rented movies and we just watched movies for one night. Rise of the Guardians is a very cute and inspirational movie.
- I was easily drawn into pinterest and then was inspired to begin knitting again. I finally finished my own scarf after two days. Worth it? I think so! Funny conversation with Pang went like this ....
"Why do you look like a grandma?"
"I'm preparing for the Winter!"
- Speaking of Pinterest, I'm getting so excited for all of the holiday pins coming in. :)
- Mom applauded me when she found me in the kitchen cooking before she got home from work. I think she misses me a whole lot. ;)
- I'm happy to say that I, at least, attempted to do my homework. I imagined myself working and reading my butt off, but who are we kidding.
- Reason woke me up to tell me that he was leaving for school. He's so funny when he carries his violin with him to school, but hey, he's gonna be a pro soon enough.
- I got to sleep in. It. was. amazing.
That's it!
.. and of course, like all things, we only want to highlight the best parts ---- but for me, that was all of it!
Can I tell you how much I love being celebrated? I love it ... not because I just want to be the center of attention or whatever, but because I feel cared about and loved more than any other day. :)
Over fall break ...
- Family decided to celebrate all of October birthdays. So much fun.
- Mom made pho because she knew that I've been wanting some.
- Yeng had mentioned to me that my cooking got better! Such a plus!
- The guys rented movies and we just watched movies for one night. Rise of the Guardians is a very cute and inspirational movie.
- I was easily drawn into pinterest and then was inspired to begin knitting again. I finally finished my own scarf after two days. Worth it? I think so! Funny conversation with Pang went like this ....
"Why do you look like a grandma?"
"I'm preparing for the Winter!"
- Speaking of Pinterest, I'm getting so excited for all of the holiday pins coming in. :)
- Mom applauded me when she found me in the kitchen cooking before she got home from work. I think she misses me a whole lot. ;)
- I'm happy to say that I, at least, attempted to do my homework. I imagined myself working and reading my butt off, but who are we kidding.
- Reason woke me up to tell me that he was leaving for school. He's so funny when he carries his violin with him to school, but hey, he's gonna be a pro soon enough.
- I got to sleep in. It. was. amazing.
That's it!
This week has been a weird one. Maybe 'cause the weather's changing or maybe because everyone was sick? Everyone was sick, but thankfully, I am still healthy as ever all through the grace of God. :) In all honesty, I was anxious about this 3-day week because I had so much work to do for my classes. It just felt overwhelming even if it didn't sound like it ... but as always, God never allows anything to come my way while He already knows what I can and cannot handle. Anyway, I know that I'll be using this break to catch up on school work. I'm pretty disappointed with my midterm grades, but it'll be okay!
Yesterday night, Maiya and I had this really long conversation about people and love and how being here is so awesome, but at the same time, it's hard because of the people that you're constantly around. You see their true selves and they'll see yours .... and when that happens, will you still choose to love them the same? Of course, we'll try, but it ain't easy. It was really good getting to know a little bit of the things on her heart and the way she feels towards certain things. Anyway, with that being said, we both woke up late this morning.
....feelin' free as a bird!
Today is my brother's birthday.
Our birthdays fall in the same month. When we were young, my sister went out and bought balloons for his birthday and a cake so we could celebrate it. Of course, I was jealous 'cause I wanted balloons, too! Ranson, being the kind-hearted, selfless guy that he is, shared his birthday with me. hahah! He's always been that kind of person .... and I have always been that kind of person.
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| A little devotion, card making, and soccer playing. |
This morning has been so peaceful and I have genuinely enjoyed this morning. I've always been one to enjoy the little things; with that being said, I was awake in both of my morning classes today! It truly is strength from the Lord alone.
You know how sometimes you have so much on your heart and there's no compilation of words that could possibly explain all that you feel and you just want to sing songs of praise and all that? This is the song that I'm singing this morning ... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xIu9oopmN7U
Fridays are beautiful and I'm quite thankful for Fridays.
Life lately ...
- I've never been so bruised in my life before. I'm getting bruised left and right and I'm getting hit everywhere. I feel like a fragile butterfly. haha!
- I love Thursdays for many reasons. One being that it's the day before Friday and I love Fridays even more. I think it's sad that we wait all week long for Friday to come and it's gone before we know it.
- Thursdays are also room check days ... so that means that my room is cleaned on a weekly basis only because it has to be cleaned or else it'd stay the same forever.
- Family has been on my mind.
- Fall is just around the corner and one thing that I'm lovin': looking up inspirational Fall outfits!
- I got to sit down with a friend today and we just chatted. It was so nice.
- I'm trying to be a better listener because I know I have a problem with listening.
- A song that I love and is currently on repeat: "All Glory" by Vertical Church.
- This week has been ridiculously busy, but wow, it's practically over and I didn't even have to worry 'bout a thang. God is good.
- I have two tests to take tomorrow and I'm not too nervous about them ... maybe just a little bit for my BIO exam. It's actually a re-take. ha ha..
Challenges
1. Complain less this week ... even about the little things.
2. More of Jesus, less of me.
3. Choosing to love others no matter the circumstance.
Prayers
1. Please pray for this week ahead of me [us]. I habitually think about the week to come when I'm still in the week before and I don't know if it's a good thing? All I know is that I scare myself when I think too far ahead.
1. Complain less this week ... even about the little things.
2. More of Jesus, less of me.
3. Choosing to love others no matter the circumstance.
Prayers
1. Please pray for this week ahead of me [us]. I habitually think about the week to come when I'm still in the week before and I don't know if it's a good thing? All I know is that I scare myself when I think too far ahead.
The weather today was a lot cooler than usual. People started pulling out sweaters already. It's the weird transitioning time between Summer and Fall. I think I like it ... but I just don't know if I'm prepared for it, both mentally and physically. I got a little cold today so I suggested that we try using our heater. It probably hasn't been used since last Winter so when I turned it on, a nasty burning scent came out and boy, it stank. Before I knew it, the alarm in our room was going off. What in the world! I didn't know what to do so I just freaked out. I was like, "Maiya, we have to go!" I was running around trying to grab my sandals while plugging my ears at the same time. Luckily enough, it was only the alarm for our room and not for the whole building. Boy, these girls would've been mad. haha! I'm glad we have windows as well. We were able to air out the air and all is well. So yeah, story of the day!
On a different note, I finished writing one of my papers and I'm almost done with the other one. Feeling quite accomplished, I should say. :)
I found a song today that encouraged me so much. It truly makes me smile knowing God is in control.
Nothing I Hold On To - Will Reagan and United Pursuit
Thanks for reading!
On a different note, I finished writing one of my papers and I'm almost done with the other one. Feeling quite accomplished, I should say. :)
I found a song today that encouraged me so much. It truly makes me smile knowing God is in control.
Nothing I Hold On To - Will Reagan and United Pursuit
Thanks for reading!
I actually love it a lot, regardless of the "fun." ;)
My daily schedule goes something along the line of this ....
7:00am - Wake up!
8-3pm - Classes all day, everyday! Lunch at 11-12pm.
3:30-5:00pm - Homework
5-5:30pm - Dinner
5:30 - 9pm - Homework, yup.
9pm - Running with Maggie
10:30ish - Shower and prepare for bed
12am - Hopefully laying in bed.
My roomie and I are literally laying on our beds with our laptops on our laps. It's just that kind of night and man, I sure do love it. I love the fact that I get to sleep in tomorrow, that I won't have to wake up until 11am, that I didn't have too much homework tonight. It's the little things .... :)
It's been a good week, guys.
I'm finally getting around to an "update" on this college craziness. Can't believe I've already spent three weeks here. Every time I begin an update blog post, I'm always at a loss for words, because I just don't know how to describe my time here so far. It's been good? It's been nice? What about bad? ha ha. I just don't know. So I decided that I was just gonna update with pictures starting from the most recent events back to move-in day! This may or may not be a long one...
- I always feel so warm when I get back to church and see all the youth. Reason has gotten so incredibly tall. So so tall and he's growing up so fast. I looked at him today and he was so handsome. The girl in his future is goin' to be one lucky gal!
- I've taken too many selfies ... more than I can count.
- I ate Hardees for the first time in my life the other day. Last week as we were driving back from church, I saw a new Hardees being built and I said, "What the! Who eats Hardees anymore?!" haha. Apparently, me. The best part? I got a combo meal for only 2 bucks.
- Gaoshouaaa .... she's so pretty. I was so scared to get to know her 'cause she looked mean, but she ain't! I truly love all the people here.
- Another unexplainable selfie. Just because!
- The pineapple! Such a nice gesture! Sheur bought me that pineapple as a graduation gift - as he does for everyone that graduates. I love random acts of kindness.
- HSF girls' get-together. We made prayer bracelets and just laughed a lot. I loved being with them. They're such funny girls with big humor.
- Rebekah and I at Waffle House. Our first Waffle House trip as official college students. T'was good!
- Mengy .... he's cool and super nice!
- Toudo, it's just Toudo! hahah. He's cool, too!
- And, I'm trying to spruce up my dorm room with little things, so I painted!
I really loved spending time with my siblings. We tried a new froyo place and it was the same as any other froyo place, but it was only better at Swirlz because of family. Time does a lot to a person, I tell ya. And time away from family means that you'll cherish the times you have together even better and more.
Our quick and quite unexpected hike to Small Falls. It was actually really good bonding time with some of the older guys and the freshmen girls. Some of them literally laid out and watched the stars and we just talked about random things like where you see yourself in 4+ years, how to say sentences in Madirin and Cantonese, and life. The evil mosquitoes had no mercy, though!
- The initiation for the Fant ladies was so nice and we left our marks on the wall as a record.
- Some of the girls chillin' in our dorm room. :)
- Kao Lee and I. Seriously, love her. I love that she invests so much time in us girls - not just the freshmen girls, but all of us in general, regardless of her busy schedule. I could learn a thing or two from her!
- The night before the first day of classes, I was freaking out so bad. Literally freaking out because I had no idea where any of my classes were. haha! I was so unorganized. It was bad. Fortunately enough, I found my way around to classes. I've been here so many times, but it's different when you have to go to classes and buildings. haha!
- Maiya, my roommate .... on the morning of the first day.
- Playing spoons with some of the upperclassmen HSF ladies. Spoons is so fun and intense!
- We made buns and they were so so good.
- Hangin' out at Kao Lee's place and filling out applications for jobs.
- Making a big birthday card for Hazel!
- and the big water slide for SGA's "Around the World" event during orientation week.
Move in day was such a breeze! I thought it'd take me forever, but it didn't even take an hour to move in! So thankful for such hard-working people!
So that's how my past three weeks have been spent - in a nut shell! If you've read this far, thanks! I'm really excited about being here and so thankful for this opened door to awesome opportunities. If you could, do pray for me as well, to continue to yield to all that God has planned in this life and that I may not be side-tracked as I'm being equipped here in this place.
Okay, that's it ... now I really have to get my homework done. I've pushed it off for far too long.
1. Developing friendships. Such amazing people with really good hearts if you just get to know them.
2. Ministries in which I will have the opportunity to partake in!
3. Challenges. So tough, but indeed good for you.
4. My professors. Caring and loving group of people, seriously.
5. Comfort. Good comfort.
Christ is enough for me. Everything I need is in You.
Hey there! It's been about three good days since I've been here at college and away from home. It's definitely bittersweet to be away from home, but I'm loving all that I'm able to experience here in college - so far. I've met a lot of people and they're quite nice people. That is until you see all the sides of who they are ... and it'll come quick, I'm sure.Anyway, here's a little update on what's been going on and how I'm feeling so far ..... :)
My roommate: Everyone's always saying how nervous they are/were to meet their roommate and what not, but not me. When we settled into our room and all of our family left, I felt really ... eh, 'cause I didn't know her well enough to be "weird" with her yet. Ya know?! It's gotten better though and I've been learning a little bit about her and the things she likes. It's been good.
Hall friends: They're real cool. Like .... "out in the open, don't care what people really think" cool. And so nice, too!
Food: It ain't so bad and yeah, it'll probably get worse. I'm pretty determined to eat healthier though. :) I'm glad they have a bit of options here and there.
I'm still adjusting to this place and the people here. I know I won't have a problem with it though! Everyone is so nice and honestly, it's all about how you perceive things. I was talking to a friend and he said that he didn't want to be so reserved. I don't want to be so reserved either. I want to reach out, get plugged in, get to know the people here and yeah! It's still my Freshmen year, so we'll see. ;)
.... enjoying this cool weather.
.... loving the people.
.... looking forward to starting school.
.... relying on God in all things!
.... listening to "Christ is Enough."
.... waiting for dinner tonight.
My roommate: Everyone's always saying how nervous they are/were to meet their roommate and what not, but not me. When we settled into our room and all of our family left, I felt really ... eh, 'cause I didn't know her well enough to be "weird" with her yet. Ya know?! It's gotten better though and I've been learning a little bit about her and the things she likes. It's been good.
Hall friends: They're real cool. Like .... "out in the open, don't care what people really think" cool. And so nice, too!
Food: It ain't so bad and yeah, it'll probably get worse. I'm pretty determined to eat healthier though. :) I'm glad they have a bit of options here and there.
I'm still adjusting to this place and the people here. I know I won't have a problem with it though! Everyone is so nice and honestly, it's all about how you perceive things. I was talking to a friend and he said that he didn't want to be so reserved. I don't want to be so reserved either. I want to reach out, get plugged in, get to know the people here and yeah! It's still my Freshmen year, so we'll see. ;)
.... enjoying this cool weather.
.... loving the people.
.... looking forward to starting school.
.... relying on God in all things!
.... listening to "Christ is Enough."
.... waiting for dinner tonight.
In a week, I'll be off to college and it feels so good to say that! I never thought I'd see the end of this college application process. Praise the Lord! I've thought about college for too long and I don't think I'm as excited anymore, but I know it'll still be great. God has allowed me to attend and I'm forever thankful! I'm ready to learn, grow, and experience in all that God has stored. All glory to God in the highest!
My mom came home from work today and she found me in my room as I was packing up some stuff. She said, "I guess I'm gonna cry... everyone is leaving me." I know she's really gonna miss me. SO, I guess she wanted to spend time with me .... SO we went shopping today for some stuff for college. It was time well spent, I say. :)
So it's true, you really do learn everywhere you go! God continually teaches in the midst of wherever you are! These are just some of the things I've learned and am still learning while working with Papaya and my co-workers there. They're very nice girls!
I'm beautiful. I know this is beyond bad, but I can't help but compare myself to other girls. When I see girls come in to shop, I notice how pretty they are or how skinny they are and all of a sudden, I no longer feel "beautiful." But being pretty and skinny doesn't even come close to what beauty is. One of the girls at work wrote a little note down and put it in a drawer at the front desk so that when everyone opened it, they'd see the note. And on that note, it read; You are altogether , my darling, and there is no blemish in you. - Song of Songs 4:7 Super sweeeet!
Obedience. When we're told to do something, most times if not all, we won't want to do it. At work, we're supposed to organize and follow certain policies -- but I don't really follow them. haha! I'm even learning from obedience from my co-workers! They don't want to start run-backs after organizing, but they do anyway. They don't want to take people's bags before going into the fitting room, but they do anyway! They don't want to tell people that some items are final sale, but they do anyway! In the same way, when God calls us to do things that we don't/won't want to do - we must be obedient. He calls us to be obedient.
God's plans are perfect. Every time, I see a shirt out of place, I have a choice; either to pick it up and put it where it's supposed to be or I can leave it there when I know I shouldn't. Here's the thing, if you're on the floor, you'll typically have lots of other clothes in your hands and you need to find where they belong. So when I do decide to put that misplaced shirt back, I find that I'm lead to all the other pieces of clothing that I was supposed to put back? Is that understandable? haha. Anyway, I am usually thankful for that. :)
So you see! Open your eyes to see and ears to hear. You'll learn lots everywhere you go. :) I'm sad to say that I'll only have about 5 days left to work with these girls. I remember going to work each day and just feeling plain awkward! After a couple days though, I saw how cool they all are! haha. It's been good. I am glad to say that I'll most likely be back as a seasonal worker, God willing!
Thanks for reading, y'all!
I'm beautiful. I know this is beyond bad, but I can't help but compare myself to other girls. When I see girls come in to shop, I notice how pretty they are or how skinny they are and all of a sudden, I no longer feel "beautiful." But being pretty and skinny doesn't even come close to what beauty is. One of the girls at work wrote a little note down and put it in a drawer at the front desk so that when everyone opened it, they'd see the note. And on that note, it read; You are altogether , my darling, and there is no blemish in you. - Song of Songs 4:7 Super sweeeet!
Obedience. When we're told to do something, most times if not all, we won't want to do it. At work, we're supposed to organize and follow certain policies -- but I don't really follow them. haha! I'm even learning from obedience from my co-workers! They don't want to start run-backs after organizing, but they do anyway. They don't want to take people's bags before going into the fitting room, but they do anyway! They don't want to tell people that some items are final sale, but they do anyway! In the same way, when God calls us to do things that we don't/won't want to do - we must be obedient. He calls us to be obedient.
God's plans are perfect. Every time, I see a shirt out of place, I have a choice; either to pick it up and put it where it's supposed to be or I can leave it there when I know I shouldn't. Here's the thing, if you're on the floor, you'll typically have lots of other clothes in your hands and you need to find where they belong. So when I do decide to put that misplaced shirt back, I find that I'm lead to all the other pieces of clothing that I was supposed to put back? Is that understandable? haha. Anyway, I am usually thankful for that. :)
So you see! Open your eyes to see and ears to hear. You'll learn lots everywhere you go. :) I'm sad to say that I'll only have about 5 days left to work with these girls. I remember going to work each day and just feeling plain awkward! After a couple days though, I saw how cool they all are! haha. It's been good. I am glad to say that I'll most likely be back as a seasonal worker, God willing!
Thanks for reading, y'all!
I seriously feel like the biggest weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Because of it, I was bitter all weekend long. Usually, weekends don't last long for me, but this past one was extra long. I hated that I felt that way. My heart was real anxious - and bad anxious, too. It was misplaced and no where near peace. You know how I was talking about trust in my last post? Well, it's so easy to say that you trust God, right? But then, the harder part comes and that's the actual trusting.
In my case, trusting through the wait. I wasn't able to contact the school this weekend about my situation, so I had to wait until Monday ... but I didn't want to. I don't have the time to wait --- but sometimes, God just wants us to wait. Just wait. And even though we feel like we can handle things on our own sometimes, we can't. God says to wait because His plans are greater and He has good in store. And lo' and behold, He surely did! Good news on my end, fo'sure. I'm really really excited about the Fall, you guys.
In my case, trusting through the wait. I wasn't able to contact the school this weekend about my situation, so I had to wait until Monday ... but I didn't want to. I don't have the time to wait --- but sometimes, God just wants us to wait. Just wait. And even though we feel like we can handle things on our own sometimes, we can't. God says to wait because His plans are greater and He has good in store. And lo' and behold, He surely did! Good news on my end, fo'sure. I'm really really excited about the Fall, you guys.
I love nights where I'm able to stay up for as long as I want! (Meaning I don't have to work the next day..) It's an incredibly unhealthy habit, but I love knowing that I can stay up as long as I need (or want) ... just because. ;) With that being said, I'm excited to finally write on this thing again. I don't think I have much to say 'cause I never do but I have been doing stuff, so I guess that could be, I don't know, maybe exciting.
I caught up with some of my friends today and it was awesome! I love catching up and just talking over food. Good stuff and it's even better when you can just talk as if you've never stopped talking, you know? The food was so nice. The Korean ladies treated us so well and they gave us an egg soup "on the house!" So lovely! I wanted to be able to reply in Korean so badly because I watch Korean dramas (hahaha), but unfortunately, I couldn't. I still loved it though! Sure felt like I was in a drama .... ;)
I bought some leopard shoes. YUP. If you take a look into my closet, the majority of my clothes are either white or black. Maybe there's a pink shirt and a blue one as well. Maybe I don't have any clothes at all! .... kidding. Point is, I've always felt so plain Jane and maybe that's good, but I figured a bit of print couldn't be all that bad. I've had my eyes on those babies.
And I've started making friendship bracelets. Maybe and hopefully I'll have more people to give them to .... because I've already forced my family to wear 'em. :) So I guess their wrists are covered. I think it's a nice little hobby on the side. Plus, they're easy to make and embroidery floss is so affordable. Let me know if you want one!
My lunch today. Thanks Pang! I doubted that tuna sandwich. It totally caught me off guard. Either it was real good or I was real hungry. There's just something about brown paper bags that I love. Maybe because it's kraft paper? I just love it.
And that was today in a nutshell! Thanks for reading!
P.S. My current favorite song is "Crash My Party" by Luke Bryan. He's so dang cute. I haven't said that about anyone in a long time. haha ...
And a station on my Pandora that I've really enjoyed listening to is "Vertical Church Band." Love the music!
I caught up with some of my friends today and it was awesome! I love catching up and just talking over food. Good stuff and it's even better when you can just talk as if you've never stopped talking, you know? The food was so nice. The Korean ladies treated us so well and they gave us an egg soup "on the house!" So lovely! I wanted to be able to reply in Korean so badly because I watch Korean dramas (hahaha), but unfortunately, I couldn't. I still loved it though! Sure felt like I was in a drama .... ;)
I bought some leopard shoes. YUP. If you take a look into my closet, the majority of my clothes are either white or black. Maybe there's a pink shirt and a blue one as well. Maybe I don't have any clothes at all! .... kidding. Point is, I've always felt so plain Jane and maybe that's good, but I figured a bit of print couldn't be all that bad. I've had my eyes on those babies.
And I've started making friendship bracelets. Maybe and hopefully I'll have more people to give them to .... because I've already forced my family to wear 'em. :) So I guess their wrists are covered. I think it's a nice little hobby on the side. Plus, they're easy to make and embroidery floss is so affordable. Let me know if you want one!
My lunch today. Thanks Pang! I doubted that tuna sandwich. It totally caught me off guard. Either it was real good or I was real hungry. There's just something about brown paper bags that I love. Maybe because it's kraft paper? I just love it.
And that was today in a nutshell! Thanks for reading!
P.S. My current favorite song is "Crash My Party" by Luke Bryan. He's so dang cute. I haven't said that about anyone in a long time. haha ...
And a station on my Pandora that I've really enjoyed listening to is "Vertical Church Band." Love the music!
I don't think I was always this way ... or maybe I was. I've become the biggest planner I know. I can't help but plan my own future and although that may be considered "safe," it can also be very dangerous. I just need to plan. I've been learning a lot lately about plans though. It could very well be my "theme." - might as well be! ;) But the Lord's plans stand firm forever; His intentions can never be shaken. - Psalm 33:11
It's so funny because these past couple of weeks, that seems to be all that I've been teaching my kids in Sunday school. When Joseph was sold by his brothers, I'm sure he thought differently of his future, but God planned for Him to become a leader and that one day, his brothers would bow down to him. When Abraham was told to go, he left his comfort zone. God's plans were different for both Abraham and Sarah.
Learning to trust in God's plans. Even while I'm saying "Okay, I trust in Your plans..." I show distrust by planning my own plans. So many plans in one sentence. It's become quite overwhelming and when you're down to nothing, what do you do? What can you do? Trust, right? Why only do it when you haven nothing left? Why not do it when God has called us to trust in Him from the very beginning?
Is anything too hard for the Lord? (Gen. 18:14)
It's so funny because these past couple of weeks, that seems to be all that I've been teaching my kids in Sunday school. When Joseph was sold by his brothers, I'm sure he thought differently of his future, but God planned for Him to become a leader and that one day, his brothers would bow down to him. When Abraham was told to go, he left his comfort zone. God's plans were different for both Abraham and Sarah.
Learning to trust in God's plans. Even while I'm saying "Okay, I trust in Your plans..." I show distrust by planning my own plans. So many plans in one sentence. It's become quite overwhelming and when you're down to nothing, what do you do? What can you do? Trust, right? Why only do it when you haven nothing left? Why not do it when God has called us to trust in Him from the very beginning?
Is anything too hard for the Lord? (Gen. 18:14)
I really need to get myself together and handle this college business. Why is it like .... the worst process ever? The papers are never ending! And I'm short probably .... 100,00! jk. But seriously, this stuff is no joke. I almost don't even wanna go to college. Oh, if I had the option ....
- I worked from 1-9pm on Saturday at the register and I got super exhausted half-way through. I think it was because I was tired of having to interact with people - not that I didn't want to but because it was exhausting. I must be extra introverted. I feel like I'm using that word too much. Seriously though. I need me some alone time, some solitude time.
- I bought embroidery floss and I'm gonna stay up to make my own friendship bracelets tonight since no one cares enough to make me one. haha! I'm kidding. I am making them though. I'm excited, too!
- I haven't painted my nails in a long time and as much as I want to, I think I'm too lazy. Maybe tomorrow.
- I watched the most adorable baby today at church! Guess what his name is? Noah. And I've decided that I will maybe name my future kid Noah. So cute!
Well, that's it!
- I bought embroidery floss and I'm gonna stay up to make my own friendship bracelets tonight since no one cares enough to make me one. haha! I'm kidding. I am making them though. I'm excited, too!
- I haven't painted my nails in a long time and as much as I want to, I think I'm too lazy. Maybe tomorrow.
- I watched the most adorable baby today at church! Guess what his name is? Noah. And I've decided that I will maybe name my future kid Noah. So cute!
Well, that's it!
It surely has been one heck of a weekend and it just flew by, too! Did I also mention that it's already Wednesday? 'Cause I don't ever seem to forget to mention the day that I'm currently writing on even if it already tells you. ha-ha. Anyway, I really enjoyed a weekend filled with tons of laughter and friends...
Seriously, these girls have a crazy sense of humor that never seems to die out. Love it though.
I also received this little note from Natalee, a girl in Sunday school. The sweetest little thing. Who knew that a little note like this could be so encouraging!
Seriously, these girls have a crazy sense of humor that never seems to die out. Love it though.
I also received this little note from Natalee, a girl in Sunday school. The sweetest little thing. Who knew that a little note like this could be so encouraging!
I'm the pursuer.
I love it when someone else takes the initiative to talk to me or the effort to try to hang out with me - not that I'm so important, but because I feel like I'm always the one that's trying to do those kinds of things to my friends. It's not bad, but sometimes, it's tiring, you know? And when I'm trying to make an effort to be a friend a certain person and they say things like, "I have no friends" "I have no one to call" ..... it's like, dang, c'mon.
It just feels nice when someone wants to know how I'm doing or what my life has been like - not just because I asked them first.
I love it when someone else takes the initiative to talk to me or the effort to try to hang out with me - not that I'm so important, but because I feel like I'm always the one that's trying to do those kinds of things to my friends. It's not bad, but sometimes, it's tiring, you know? And when I'm trying to make an effort to be a friend a certain person and they say things like, "I have no friends" "I have no one to call" ..... it's like, dang, c'mon.
It just feels nice when someone wants to know how I'm doing or what my life has been like - not just because I asked them first.
... because persistence is good. No, it's great!
As I read from my bible these days, I feel like I'm reading a bunch of totally new things that I've never read before. Maybe that comes from maturity and learning more? I don't know what it is, but it's good to realize new things. I read from the parable of the persistent widow the other day in the book of Luke (ch. 18) and what a scene it was. The widow pleaded persistently and the unjust judge gave justice.
Although context is so important, I'm not really writing about how the widow gained justice from the judge, but more on her persistence. I can't believe I didn't realize this sooner in life, but man ... being persistent is important in all the areas of your life. It's so important in your prayer life, when you read your bible and do your devotions, when reaching out to others, or calling back for job opportunities.
I need to learn to be more persistent in all the areas of my life.
As I read from my bible these days, I feel like I'm reading a bunch of totally new things that I've never read before. Maybe that comes from maturity and learning more? I don't know what it is, but it's good to realize new things. I read from the parable of the persistent widow the other day in the book of Luke (ch. 18) and what a scene it was. The widow pleaded persistently and the unjust judge gave justice.
Although context is so important, I'm not really writing about how the widow gained justice from the judge, but more on her persistence. I can't believe I didn't realize this sooner in life, but man ... being persistent is important in all the areas of your life. It's so important in your prayer life, when you read your bible and do your devotions, when reaching out to others, or calling back for job opportunities.
I need to learn to be more persistent in all the areas of my life.
It's been a hectic couple of weeks, but I'm so glad they're through. I feel like the craziness never stops ....
- I'm finally done with all of grade school and I've graduated! Whoohoo.
- Got my first pedicure with my friends the other day. So much fun and kinda relaxing.
- Realized just how bad of a spender I was. It's so incredibly bad.
- I'm fat again. Mom noticed it and so it's time to lose weight even more.
- Made the most perfect pancakes today ... out of scratch. :)
And tomorrow ...
- Yeng and I are gonna go running early in the morning.
- I'm gonna go look for a light pink dress to wear to a wedding this weekend. I love weddings. :)
- I want to paint my nails and clean my room and do nothing. ha ha.
- Then pack for Thursday and Friday and Saturday.
- Try to figure out papers that I've set aside for far too long.
- And finally, find songs for VBS.
Oh goodness.
- I'm finally done with all of grade school and I've graduated! Whoohoo.
- Got my first pedicure with my friends the other day. So much fun and kinda relaxing.
- Realized just how bad of a spender I was. It's so incredibly bad.
- I'm fat again. Mom noticed it and so it's time to lose weight even more.
- Made the most perfect pancakes today ... out of scratch. :)
And tomorrow ...
- Yeng and I are gonna go running early in the morning.
- I'm gonna go look for a light pink dress to wear to a wedding this weekend. I love weddings. :)
- I want to paint my nails and clean my room and do nothing. ha ha.
- Then pack for Thursday and Friday and Saturday.
- Try to figure out papers that I've set aside for far too long.
- And finally, find songs for VBS.
Oh goodness.
What's been happening:
1. A couple weeks ago, I finally got in some of my papers for school. It was a long long long process of handling, dealing, looking for papers. It's ain't over just yet, but I'm glad some of it is done already. College is no joke. I'm a tad but scuurrrred ... yup, just a lil' bit.
2. Also, I went in for an interview for Papaya a while back and I got the job! So I've been there for a couple weeks now. It hasn't been tiring at all - well, just a little bit, but it's not like it's hard work/labor, you know? Plus, the my co-workers are real nice and helpful, so I'm thankful for that!
3. That's Grace and I when we went bowling. We don't really have a lot of pictures together at all. We went bowling that night for Chou who is now living out of state. :(
4. Yeng and I .... on our way to send some more papers for college and then we (Yeng, Me, Reason, and Pang) went to watch Scary Movie 5 afterwards. haha. Loved spending time together with them!
5. Yeng got his new car and he's so happy, so he spent some time rinsing it. ;) But it died on the road the other day and I think it's still there right now. :/
6. That's me on my very first break for work. I didn't know what to do. I had no money and I was so hungry. haha. So I took my time in the bathroom and took some pictures. All I had was a water bottle. :(
So much time has passed already.
Y'all, it's May. Can we just take a moment to grasp that? *squeels. It's May. Graduation ... come sooner? Well, maybe that's not a good idea because I'm having the hardest time trying to find time! I can't believe it's May! Oh my goodness. I freaked out today - just a lil' bit because it's coming. It is. I'm slowly getting things done. :)
And because it is already May, I'm gonna have to kick up my workout/eating up a-whole-nother notch! I need to look good for myself before graduation, before all the weddings, before college! I can do it! :) So May is going to be THE month of healthy eating and lots of cleansing and lots of taking care of the body I have! :)
1. I underestimated this apple I ate this morning. It turned to be a lot better than I expected. ;)
2. This week will be busy, but I think I'll be okay because I know that a lot of things are coming to an end. I think I'm always so busy looking at the end of the tunnel, but in between it all, I don't realize the content.
3. Last week was a bad week of eating and no exercise and no devotion. This week will be different.
4. Yup, plans are to get lots of things done this week ... that includes cleaning my room because it just gets so messy so easily. haha.
2. This week will be busy, but I think I'll be okay because I know that a lot of things are coming to an end. I think I'm always so busy looking at the end of the tunnel, but in between it all, I don't realize the content.
3. Last week was a bad week of eating and no exercise and no devotion. This week will be different.
4. Yup, plans are to get lots of things done this week ... that includes cleaning my room because it just gets so messy so easily. haha.
Saviour, He can move the mountains. My God is mighty to save!
I visited my sister's church today and a boy I met on Saturday sang this song. Everything about him was so encouraging - when you're madly in love with God, you can tell. This boy was.
What a good reminder to myself.What a much needed Sunday to just go and visit another church and see everything that's the Lord is doing in other places. So refreshing!
In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your Heavenly Father. -Matthew 5:16
I visited my sister's church today and a boy I met on Saturday sang this song. Everything about him was so encouraging - when you're madly in love with God, you can tell. This boy was.
What a good reminder to myself.What a much needed Sunday to just go and visit another church and see everything that's the Lord is doing in other places. So refreshing!
In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your Heavenly Father. -Matthew 5:16
said Jesus.
My oh my. I am so wiped out and tired. This week has been the longest and it's not over yet. *Cries ... Just one more day, but I feel like crap and I just want to give up and I just want to stop. This day was just messy and boy am I glad that it's over. I know it's so sad to think like that sometimes. :P
My mind is all over the place. Such last minute things going on and so many things to do before school's over. I don't want to think about it anymore. :(
I always say this ... but I'm gonna say it again. I'm SO glad that at the end of the day, it all comes down to Jesus. At the end of the day, it's always about Him. And how glad I am to worship Him! I predicted a tough week and behold, it's been tough ---- but God knew that too and He's walking me through. Oh, what joy!
... anyway, I should really get going because it's late and I'm still debating if I should exercise. Maybe not, huh? I think I'm just gonna sleep early tonight and plan weekend "things to do" tomorrow or something and not worry. :) ... an exercise in the morning or something. We'll see.
Seek His will in all you do and He will show you which path to take. -Proverbs 3:6
My oh my. I am so wiped out and tired. This week has been the longest and it's not over yet. *Cries ... Just one more day, but I feel like crap and I just want to give up and I just want to stop. This day was just messy and boy am I glad that it's over. I know it's so sad to think like that sometimes. :P
My mind is all over the place. Such last minute things going on and so many things to do before school's over. I don't want to think about it anymore. :(
I always say this ... but I'm gonna say it again. I'm SO glad that at the end of the day, it all comes down to Jesus. At the end of the day, it's always about Him. And how glad I am to worship Him! I predicted a tough week and behold, it's been tough ---- but God knew that too and He's walking me through. Oh, what joy!
... anyway, I should really get going because it's late and I'm still debating if I should exercise. Maybe not, huh? I think I'm just gonna sleep early tonight and plan weekend "things to do" tomorrow or something and not worry. :) ... an exercise in the morning or something. We'll see.
Seek His will in all you do and He will show you which path to take. -Proverbs 3:6
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My mornings have been starting later and later each day, but I am completely okay with that. It's a normal thing, okay? Today was just an extremely wonderful day! Seriously, when you're keeping your eyes focused on the Lord and His plans, things go amazingly well. I started off with a nice workout which lasted approximately 30 minutes or so. Workouts in the mornings are so nice! I love being able to say that I already worked out .... my workouts consists of high knees, jogging in place, jumping jacks, push ups ... the easy stuff. ;) Then I made my breakfast. I think cutting the apples, making the tea, boiling the eggs, and toasting the bread ... took about hrm, 1 HOUR! haha. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but putting effort into the presentation of your foods takes time. But I loved the fact that I was able to eat a "well-made" meal. It was a whole lot more fun, I must say. And when you do things like that, it takes it and puts it all into a new perspective. I really enjoyed breakfast this morning. :)
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A friend that I just met asked me what I thought my spiritual gifts were ... and I ain't gonna lie. I had to refresh myself with what any spiritual gifts were. But I came to this conclusion that hey, God gave me to give to encourage! Actually, I think anyone has the gift to encourage! When I think of encouragement, I think of being a blessing in someone else's life. Have you ever just planned to be a blessing? I think we could all plan to be a blessing in others' lives in so many ways, whether that be buying a person a snack or sending something over to someone. Anything. Today, I received this cute little card from a wonderful friend of mine. It's honestly the little things, guys. She lives in the same state and the fact that she would want to send it to me instead of just giving it to me means that much more.
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And lastly, this picture is before I went in for my interview today. Man, how thankful I am for an interview! Just the interview itself. God is so amazing, you guys. And I couldn't be happier for the opportunity. As you can tell on my face below. ;)
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God is so amazing and my heart is just so overwhelmed by His love! There are no words.
Seriously, my heart feels like it's going to explode because for the first time, if not for the first time in a long time, I'm really starting to feel God pour immensely into this day of mine. What an awesome day it was, man.
Jesus Calling | April 11th
This is the day that I have made. Rejoice and be glad in it. Begin the day with open hands of faith, ready to receive all that I am pouring into this brief portion of your life. Be careful not to complain about anything, even the weather, since I am the Author of your circumstances. The best way to handle unwanted situations is to thank Me for them. This act of faith frees you from resentment and frees Me to work My ways into the situation, so that good emerges from it. To find joy in this day, you must live within its boundaries. I knew what I was doing when I divided time into twenty-four-hour segments. I understand human frailty, and I know that you can bear the weight of only one day at a time. Do not worry about tomorrow or get stuck in the past. There is abundant Life in My presence today.
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus ... how good You are that You would choose to know me!
It rained today. It rained and the nasty and much hated pollen is gone. How can we not be thankful for such things? Can we just stop and ... yeah. What a refreshment!
Jesus, only Jesus.
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